Finalizing the First Appointment

I am so new to this and putting my life in public...so to speak. When you are in a fat body, you tend to keep things to yourself and not share things. So this is like an unveiling and getting down to the nitty gritty of my life. I am so thankful I have support and as we journey through this together, maybe, just maybe this will help someone else thinking about making changes in their lives. 

I called the doc this morning and made my initial consultation appointment for lap band surgery. I am so excited and also scared silly about this. Everything is going to change, I mean everything.  I read on another blog, that if hunger isn't the problem, then eating isn't the solution. How true is that???

I realize how much eating for me is just a crutch, I am not hungry that much...I am worried that much. Why do  I worry and fret and fret and worry. My life is wonderful! I have been married for 31 years and sure it has been hard at times and it has been horrible at times, but it has been great and is getting better every day. We don't have major problems, just little bumps in the road. I have 3 beautiful daughters, all grown and doing well. I am such a proud mama! I have a 3 year old grandson that is the joy of my heart. My family loves me regardless of my size, but I don't really love me at this size. I am ready for this help, for this procedure to give me the tools to help me become a better woman. 

Let the transformation begin....in all aspects of my life. I have a strong faith and since I made the decision to have this surgery, this verse has helped me so much:

"But we all, with unveiled face beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit." 2 Corinthians 3:18

To me, this means taking of the mask, to stop hiding behind the fat, to become real and honest and be transformed into a new me, a new day, a new life, just as the Lord intended me to be.